Tomorrow marks my 8 year wedding anniversary. That should be a time of celebration right? That's a huge accomplishment. Marriage is not for the faint of heart. Marriage is a daily choice to put someone else's needs before your own. That's easy during the dating phase. Your world revolves around that other person. They give you butterflies when you see them. Your face lights up when they text you. You laugh at every joke they make, even if it's not funny because they are just that adorable to you. You spend an hour getting ready before they pick you up for that date, because of course you want to look good. You hear a special song on the radio and you crank it up singing along because that's "our song." You slow dance to it every time you are together. You spend hours piecing together a seashell necklace just make her feel special. You spend hours attending every baseball came just to show him you care.
Have you ever looked up from life and realized that the target you had been aiming for was completely wrong? Have you ever lifted your head from the busyness of the day and noticed that all these things you have been chasing after have left you feeling empty and unfulfilled? My life right now is a prime example of that exact ah-ha moment. Maybe you are like me; stubborn. When I get my mind set on something, I have a tendency to chase after it wholeheartedly, never paying attention to the consequences that may come along. Sometimes God has to really shake my core before I even open my eyes to see what's happening around me.